Tuesday, May 31, 2005

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wow im lyk updating at 1 am laa


haha nth's up la
juz felt lyk updating
cuz i've nth to do

wah suddenly i lyk yanzi's song
maybe i buying her album
leehom oso
ai cuo iz quite gd
haha so many albums
so little money

how..?
get an MP3 player la
but
okkkk
im nt so rich anyway
mebbe nxt time bahs

incredible
i learnt a new solo 2dae
spent the whole evening on it
haha rocks man
can open concert in my room oredi

haiiz
tmr still haf lessons
after dat...
mentoring
soo its gonna be a long dayy ahead


late at night
and im inspired
haaha
i'll go write sumting
wish mi luck k

PEACE


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 1:39 AM|

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Sunday, May 29, 2005

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juz nw i was watching armageddon(spelling..?)
waahh feel very touching
the guys out dere saving the earth
dey muz blow up one asteroid to avoid it crashing la
den ran into alotalot of problems
but finally dey managed to blow it up
at wad cost..?

one guy had to stay and detonate the nuclear bomb
the character bruce willis played
rellii
reliii
rocks
he stayed and sacrificed himself for humanity

dat was one great movie
best one i've seen so farr
the song oso nicee
by Aerosmith de i dunno wads the name haha=P

yupp
basically 2dae im lazing around
did my daily 5 questions on maths
den slp
haha bo bian la
really quite sian
den practiced my piano abit
cuz guitar no strings!!!
wahhh
im buying tmr when i go for lesson
haha go early tmr bahs
can go play iD
break my akina record again

okie
i shall nt tink too much oredi
or i'll hafta be demoralized again
well.....















fuck demoralization


determination malcolm..
now playing: Me against the world ; Simple Plan

PEACE


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 10:20 PM|

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Friday, May 27, 2005

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gt back my report bk 2dae
hmm
nt very nicee la
but look on the brightside
i improved
but nt gd enuff la
my dad was lyk amazed dat
i wan go vj
cuz he see my present results
quite unbelievable i soo ambitious la

so lidat la
talk abit of cock wif mdm hidayah
den go le
my dad had to rush back to work
meet client bahs
so i went eat le den go tm buy guitar strings
haha i happily happily go buy
the wrong strings
LOL
wadamove i reach home den find out man
yaa den after i sian 1/2 after the discovery
i went to slp
feel very easily tired these few daes
haha to the point dat
i can slp durin morning assembly
how pro iz dat..? =D

this june holidays
i haf a very intensive schedule ahead
lookin back at the midyrs
i can safely say i was hardworking
maybe the way i study wrong bahs rite
dats y my result speaks for itself
anyway
after june holidays
i'll scare the tchers wif the big jump in my grades
pwn all maN!!
soo happi 2dae
i've nv felt better heex XD


PEACE


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 9:27 PM|

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Thursday, May 26, 2005

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Furnix juz clinched champions in the
league
yupp happi lehz
haha although i 2dae off form
lucky still can la
beat sphinx 6-2

scorers ( according to time)
-SMURF
-FERWL
-JA
-SYL
-SLIMY
-PARPS

the match was a very close fight in the 1st half
come half time
when the seond half started
it was a different story
when kyo gets subbed in
its an even more different story haha
no la joking

yupp tmr iz ptc dae
i'll juz hafta go show off the killer innocent look
on my face throughout the session
and everything will be alright

yea i hafta buy new guitar strings again
dun worry my dearr guitar
i'll get u up and rocking tmr
u're the onli one i haf now
am i feelin better
i am until today
shaken...

PEACE


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 7:46 AM|

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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

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thx chaijun...u rawk


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 7:26 AM|

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Tuesday, May 24, 2005

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Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safer in my room
Unless I try to start again
I don't want to be the one
Who battles always choose
Cuz inside
I realize That
I'm the one confused


I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit t o n i g h t

Cultured my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I have no options left again
I dont want to be the one
Who battles always choose
Cuz inside I realizeThat I'm the one confused


I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this wayI'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
Cuz I'm the one that falls
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends


I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit



| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 4:29 AM|

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Monday, May 23, 2005

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woo
wad a dae 2dae
haha


morning wake up
and realized im late for soccer wif the guys
lol
den i chiong
1 hr late
poh tiong,jiunhoe,guoen,dodo and eugene dere liao
waah piang
den dat soh
ask ppl come
he ownself nv show up
wad a guy man
yaa lorr
den after dat fabien come wif his ball
den start kicking wif one yalam team n one muscleguy team
waah the sun so hot man
den i kick half-way bth ask eugene sub me
haha after thrashing both teams (FURNIX POWERR)
we played among ourselves hahaha
the funny part
dat time we attacking den fabien goalkeeper
he kip sayin i gt the near post covered dey cant score
den kip repeatin n repeatin
lol den jiun hoe pass one ball to me
i use left foot
LEFT FOOT


Ahem


LEFT FOOT
to slot the ball in
hahaa we all laff lyk mad
yeahh den after dat we went cs play arcade
cs..
haha den pt ask mi go play initialD
yaa den min han played too
haha i run records for their cars
esp pt's GC8..
he run akinadownhill 3:27 plus
lol i borrow his car run
3.10(17 sec diff)
w00t he xia dao
bahHH i can do faster wif mi 86 anyway
haha den ask mi coach him
iD canot be coached de la
muz trial n error
see wad corner can take in wad speed

den went mac eat
haha tok alot of cock
den after dat i went cut mi hair
while the others go kick again
the stylist
i tink hes abit n00b la
nw mi hair..umm
abit unique
haha wan see
rmb look at me tmr la!

yepps
2daes nt a bad dae
soccer does wonders
so did initialD
haha time does heal
till later

PEACE


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 9:31 PM|

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Sunday, May 22, 2005

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2dae haha v fun man
mi cuzzins come 2dae
play ps2 haha

let them play lorr
nan de dey come ma
den i pwn them in winning eleven
10-0
w00t

tmr kicking wif soh dey all
sian
den go cut hair
hope dat it'll turn out okayy bahs
i wanna kip it long
too bad canot
haiiz

kx
time to sleep
mi gan mao cant seem to
go awayyy
aiyaa hope dat tmr alrite le
take care everyone

PEACE


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 9:19 AM|

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Saturday, May 21, 2005

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defeated Playboy 3-1
Scorers: mingwei,eugene,shawn

i was subbed in as left-back
replacin shawn n yupp
i muz sae dat mi game has improved somewhat
haha
reli enjoyed miself 2dae

after dat accompany larre take bus
to tampines den he take 28 home
i tink hes v sick
hope he'll be k nxt time bahs
haha went play id
im so proud of miself
Happogahara Outbound: 2.37---2.33
Akagi Downhill: 2.30---2.29
yupp improved my times
maybe
i've nt run into a bottleneck after all
thx 86..!!

yepp im feelin better 2dae
the fear of loss iz the thing holding me back la
as yoda said the fear of losing iz the path to the dark side
soo i shant be afraid
it'll onli make miself sadder
yepp
im taking it easy
baby steps...

long weekend ahead
so evryone rest well k
next term wud be a v busy one
for the sec4s
okayy evryone
i go watch mi FA cup final le
Manchester United Vs Arsenal


PEACE


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 11:34 PM|

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Friday, May 20, 2005

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my exams
basically
nt very good

yupp
i dunno abt u guys but
i tink im losing meself le
i 4gt totally hw i used to be
was i normally v chatty or juz quiet
i dunno seriously
these few weeks been tough
so tough dat
im nw abit messed up inside
yaa
i've been an idiot..a real big idiot
miracles juz don't happen..n nvr will
im gonna let go for real now
no turning back




this time















i mean it

PEACE


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 9:08 AM|

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Thursday, May 19, 2005

-star wars-

wwooah
star wars iz teh r0x0RZ
hahaha very nice movie
u all shud watch it sumtime

shows how anakin skywalker
turns into darth vader
personally
i tink anakin iz abit retarded
turn to the dark side
juz because he tinks dat
padme iz dying..
such a powerful person can be so stupid
yaa shall nt sae anymore
u all go watch urself =p
hahahhaa

initial D...
i've reached a bottleneck
mi other courses are mostly sucky
n im stuck on 304 in akina
where im capable of running a 300 flat
hmm
maybe i shud stop for awhile
yaa btw
i juz ran mi old RX-7 on akina
new record lol
means dat i've improved since last time
dats good
hahaha yaa
at least lidat i can still stay in Project.D

yaa gettin back papers tmr..
letsgo!

PEACE
may the force be with youu =)


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 10:55 PM|

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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

-yay-

the exams are OVERRRR
wheew
wad a exam man
finally can song yo kou qi lor
waaah
afternoon come back
play evrything
wahahahaha
yeAHHHHHHHH


tmr wud be stars wars
haha wud be v fun bahs
cuz alot ppl going
lollol
b4 dat im playin initialD
gonna break my personal best
yupp
i trust my 86

yaa so hopefully
tmr can play until i pengx
hahaha
k laa
enuff le
i'll go blastt mi guitar or sumting
GREEEEENNNN DAYYYY
w00t

PEACE
tofu delivery tmr


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 4:57 AM|

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

-yay-

yepp
IM BACKKKKKKKKKK
betcha all
miss the old malcolm ritex
well i tot it thru
and realized
i shudnt be sad at all
yuuppp
SO
malcolm's back
the happi one

2dae's emaths n chem paper one
it was okayy la
the chem
i tink
at most 30 marks
wahh sad man
bt nvm
can get least one A can le la
emaths....
confirmed 15 marks gonee
yupp
bahHh bt shud b still pass la
alrite
tmr's geog n physics
paper one
hope dat
i can pwn them A L L

yo last dayy everybody
let's go..

PEACE
hu wan go play initialD on thursdae b4 the movie..?
i delivering tofu on thurs...=p
haha take care everyone


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 5:26 AM|

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Monday, May 16, 2005

-ll re-

hope i can feel better tmr
things are realii
messing me up inside
watever i do
wherever i am
it reminds me
always

dunno wad the hell i shud do now
cant tink straight
okkk..
maybe
i shudnt carry on doing this
k
long night ahead
i tink...
its gonna be one of the longest nights of my life
ride on pple..
im gonna be okayy
eventually i hope
yupp last 2 daes remaining
dun give up now


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 7:32 AM|

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Sunday, May 15, 2005

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........
wont be seeing mi smilin
for the nxt few wks
sorie

PEACE


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 6:25 AM|

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-this sucks-

immediately
the rain started again
wif thunder and all the stuff



and i haf tis feeling





it won't stop



won't stop




my shadows the onli one dat walks beside me
my shallow hearts the onli thing dats beatin
sometimes i wish someone out there will find me
till then i walk alone


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 1:01 AM|

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Friday, May 13, 2005

-day 5-

it was emaths 2dae
seiously
i didnt bet mi money
dat i wud get gd marks
i might even fail
n tongwei will personally
rip mi lungs out.......-.-


yaaa thx sermin..!!
lucky lend mi calculator
or else ydae physics im gone man
lollol..!!!! u rawk!!!!
physics was okayy
hopefully will get an A1 la
i tink her calculator
brought mi luck
waah biang
later get back the paper fail
bt wun so suay de la hOr

w00t mondaes chinese
i hafta pia oredi
chinese muz gt A1 man
its lyk possible la
bt nid abit more work onli
yupp great guys
hang on
onli 3 more daes till the end

the end of exams
the end of my confidence

PEACE


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 9:10 AM|

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Wednesday, May 11, 2005

-day 3-

2daes chem paper n geog
waah abit siong la
bt all in all
its still okayyy
still can handle
i tink both of them i
haf a high confidence laa
if laterr both fail

i relii dunno wad to do le
yuppp
2dae went to mac wif the
usual study gang
hahaha
LOL
siannnz
den study study
deres tis guy opposite us la
he's lyk haf a plastic rat in his hand
den lyk wan throw over lidat
den we all plann
if he throw over gif him the
" tell mi u didnt juz did dat"
look whahaha
den i suggested
thekahwee wayy
lol
works lyk a charm de
buden sad
the guy nv throw XD

yupp so deres onli physics emaths n chinese
to worry abt
soo im gonna go read n hopefully do a lil stuff on emaths
the transformations thingy yaa
yupp nice work guys!!

onli a few more daes to go till its all overr
bt a hell lot more daes for all the sec4s hahaha
okayy everyone
jiayoouuz

PEACE


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 5:54 AM|

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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

-exams-

yupp its the 2nd dae of the ahs wu lin da hui
curently
amaths..ss..and lit
haf been settled
and tmr's geog n chem
its gonna be a killer man

yupp 2dae went studying
wif joyce aining n violet
lol
mac iz one happening place
alot things to see and sae lorr
budden most of the time
we're studying lyk mad
geog juz wont stick to our heads man
chem too...
i muz show ccl
den she stun until nth sae wahahhaa
cant wait
to see her face

went home at abt 8 plus laa
yupp nw i hafta go study mi geog le
2dae shud b 1am slp bah


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 6:37 AM|

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Saturday, May 07, 2005

-exams-

exams are coming
juz less than 48 hrs away
hmm wonderr hw everione's doing..?
im gonna be ok
to say the least

nw readin differentiation of expotential stuff
yupp im gonna master it 2nite
at all costs
so wish mi luck yaa

lol had 2 consec daes of mentoring
siong lehs
2dae iz physics crash course
8 hrs
covered everything in physics dats tested
hahahaa studied wif melissa abit 2dae
lol she has 9 chapters of bio
i haf 300+ pages of physics lehzz
20 chapters
bahHhh
im still a lil down
hopefully
i'll be totally recovered
frm mi demoralized state
being demoralized ain't fun i tell u
evrything u do
no feeling de
haiiiz
exams...
lets go


PEACE


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 8:20 AM|

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Friday, May 06, 2005

-BACK-

k guys
im ok
im back

yaa ydae abit under the weather
bahHhh
these kinda stuff
happen to mi once in a while la
demoralizing.......


when u feel dat
everything u've been doin
might nt make things
turn out the way u want it to be
yet u convince urself
toking to urself
keep the faith
keep on going
den suddenly
u realized the reality of it
it might REALLY won't be worth it
going sucha long way
juz to find urself
wasting ur efforts
all alongg
dat.....
doesnt
feel
great
at
all

demoralizing........
anywayyy
its exams
watever
im gonna get As for both mi maths man
kip on moving evryone.....i hope


PEACE


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 10:00 PM|

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Thursday, May 05, 2005

-....-

it didnt rain



it juz poured....

Demoralized Inc.
Open for Business

welcome to my worrld
of demoralization and darkness


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 7:19 AM|

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-.....-

excuse me
did you see where mi confidence went..?


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 12:02 AM|

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