Friday, July 21, 2006
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todays not a nice day
in fact i think its the worse day of my life
i wont wanna talk about it
i just feel that
i always choke up on impt occasions
Olevels,furnix matches all dat
i dont know
but i can assure you all that
the malcolm inside
is not awakened yet
i'll have to shrug this failure of a person
out of my body
i mean seriously
even though i think im going crazy alrd
THIS IS NOT THE MALCOLM I KNOWthese 16 yrs
im gonna abandon the failure you all know now
startin frm tmr
malcolm has woken frm his slumber
im gonna be born again
to sum up today
fucking sian
zz i know im gonna
regret this post someday
| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 5:34 AM|
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Tuesday, July 18, 2006
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hi guyss
long time never update
yeah cuz damn busy these days
pw,tutorials,trying to understand topics MYSELF
cuz the lecture notes too sucky and vague
haiis
guess all i have is myself now le
anyway i guess i can cope
maybe eugene was right
maybe im blessed to come tpjc
as in
the pace is not as frighteningly fast
like MJ
and the atmosphere is well
confortable in a sense
at least it's okay
yepp im beginning
to realize that actually God had plans
yeah love ya father!
sounds gay WAHAHA
tmrs the interhse soccer tournament
AKA
the big TPJC soccer talent scouting
tpjc soccer needs new blood
and i heard that
the right wing has space
so..im joining the tournament
in hope that coach would notice me
well...
im kinda in mixed feelings now
cuz im afraid somehow
cuz in my team i volunteered to play
Right wing
spearheading the attk frm d right side
but..
i nv had the exprience..
nv played in that position before
so ya..kinda uneasy
but somehow i feel deep inside
i already know how to play it..
its like..hmmm
kinda born for it i guess hahaha
yepp all the best for me tmr
may i not get outshined by yalams
sometimes i wonder why i worry
anyways..i think im going abck ahs for founders day ya
haha cya guys soon
| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 8:08 AM|
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Saturday, July 08, 2006
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frustrations
frustrations..
and
disappointments
yeah
although Furnix won
but
i conceeded a goal
thanks to my defensive mistake
its seriously not the first time
i did this stupid thing
when i gt a foul throw afterwards
my confidence really really hit rock bottom.
as in
i dont even want to carry on playing
and when i got subbed off
actually i felt relieved..
the team would not have to worry
and i was correct
we attacked..and scored a goal
won 4-2
set me thinking..
would the team actually be much better
and playing at a higher level without my
dumb and clumsy inclusion..?
am i just a liability..
a burden to the team
i seriously think i am
...
well
i know it sounds childlish
but im..demoralized in a sense
no
im totally demoralized
how the hell am i gonna play well
somebody tell me..
if its the matter of technique
im willing to train
if its the problem of talent
i guess
the only way out is to quit the team.
| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 5:38 AM|
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Wednesday, July 05, 2006
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heartbreaks are there
to show you that you lived a life
...i think thats too positive.
| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 3:12 AM|
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