Tuesday, March 21, 2006
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oookay
this is my super delayed entry
yupp didnt really blogged
cuz i was busy with fitting in tpjc
and the thought that i'll be spending the nxt 2 yrs there
it takes some major attitude adjustment
hmm but i'll try look on the bright side of things
at least i can complete my A levels there
about serving the school..
i couldnt care less..
the tchers all...heckcare heckcare one.
except for some la..quite caring
k la one of the bad points of the college
is that
there really isnt a motivation to excel there
everybody just leaves everybody where they are
and just live day by day
yeah and to counter this
i need motivation..and i sort of found it
cuz tingshengs mother went ask esther lai
on appealing into mj
the principal said something about looking at ur semester 1 results
but hmm i gave it a careful thought
there is PW..which is assessed througout the yr
den suddenly you change college.
den wouldnt it be sorta halfway here
halfway there....?
secondly..theres no concrete evidence
that this sorta transfer happenned..
so im not very confident
plus..theres no requirement really there
i considered calling mjc up
to clarify
but i dun haf the guts ya
im afraid...
i wont even get to harbour this small hope
that i'll go back to mjc
maybe next year..? i dunno
yupp i guess just sharing my tots out
i'll leve everything to Gods hands alrdy
maybe he put me in tpjc..so that
i can find my lost faith..?
haha
what the guy up there is thinking..
i have no idea
but deep inside i know
he loves me and has great plans
not just for me
you too
nites!
| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 6:52 AM|
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Friday, March 10, 2006
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yesterday night's campfire rocked.
yeahh although vega didnt clinch the champions
we had fun nonetheless..
its great to see the freshie's smiling faces..
yuppp orientation was a success!!
and with the close of orientation
is the start of the school term..
official start.
yupp
i'll be off to tpjc
haiis
still cant leave my meridians behind
yupp
all i want to say is thank you
to all the mjc people..
thanks for the wonderful exprience.
especially the vegans..=D
you all rock..
and the counciliors as well
hey vegans..
thanks for everything
i enjoyed every single moment with you all
the debriefings...the lunches..dinners..
and the time we went to joy's place...
the smiles..laughs and tears..
thank you
for making me a part of you all..
although i cant really join you all..starting nxt term
i'll always remember you bunch of guys
no matter where i go =))
| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 8:50 PM|
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Monday, March 06, 2006
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1st day of orientation in tpjc...
i was late this morning...
haii
tpjc frankly speaking
doesnt care abt latecomers..
soo there i went...
followed the crowd cuz i got no idea where to go to..
yupp
den eventually made my way to the hall
mett cheryl along the way too
we were like
" wad are we doinghere?!! "
everthing was in a big mess
there was no organization
no teachers in charge
no order..
and found out alot of ppl had the same fate as us
mj ==> tpj
haiis
den we waited and rotted for lyk 45 mins..
waiting for the principals address..
if its in mj
the council wont let this happen la
but the tpjc council couldnt care less
just left us there to rot..
den one tcher came and said we may use the washroom
lol
when she said that
immediately half the cohort left the college
yeah
so much for school spirit.....
after dat was the principals address..
she mentioned that
there were over 100 appeals into tpjc
YEAH RIGHT
appeal out more i guess..zzz
and congratulated us for coming into tpjc
im was like whattt....
hmm
den i went to find shiqi..
she had the same reaction as me also..
both of us sian 1/2
dunno how the 1st 3 mths tpjc ppl survive
den after dat was the tour ard the college
i tell you..
the college is RUNDOWN..
the LTs..kns
the canteen cannot make it..
the walkways..i dont even wanna say
den went back mjc after the 1st day is over..
for some reason...
i dont feel it
as in..
i feel kinda extra back in mjc
seriously i dont know whyy..
talked to the vegans abit..
den talked to junkwang,andrew,yanhong
and shuling even said that mj is boring
and jane ponned..
when me and shiqi heard we were lyk
WHAT!
here we are dying to get in
you guys are saying mj sucks and din turn up..
whats happening in this world....
i haf no ideaa..
dats about all today
theres still orientation for the nxt 4 days
i looked at my schedule..
i sian already
while my vegans are having fun..
im sitting thru lectures..
if tpjc is so hiong on studies..
why izit still so academically sucky..?
blehs....
i dont feel like going anywhere..
i feel so desolated..depressed..
yeah i dont think my nxt two yrs would be quite happy..
all because i screwed up my choices..
can only bank on my appeal already
which frankly speaking..has less than 5% chance of gettin through.
so far
i guess
this is the most depressed i ever been in my life.
i never felt so..
err
sad before..
i dunno..
why must i screw up my choices...
damn.
come to think of it..it was damn stupid.
whatever
no point dwelling over it now..
its funny to see God toying with your destiny..
maybe he has a plan..
does he have a plan for the beggar in the street..?
is being a beggar part of his plan.?
if it is..
its too cruel..
i dont know.
people always say..keep the faith..
well,all i can say is im trying very hard to..
God works in mysterious ways
sometimes good
sometimes bad
and the good stuff
never happens to me
| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 6:23 AM|
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
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hmm
i just gt posted to tpjc..
i was like yeah wtf..
aiya
no mood to do any thing man
.....
somemore tmr have school..
dunno la
no feeling liao
im such a failure la
screw up things always at the last minute
i think its in my genes or smth...
cant help it
maybe im destined to be a failure all my life..
maybe im destined of a crappy life
well...i'll just go where fate wanna take me
im too tired to fight it....
yeah
when you think life doesnt get any shittier....
it does
and for some reason..
it ALWAYS happens to me
im nt complaining or wadever
juz wanna SHOUT EVRYTHING OUT
wheres God when i needed him the most.........
faith is hard to keep..when you dont even feel him..
i dont know.
why tpjc..?
am i making a big fuss about it..?
dont know...
im losing my head..
okies..
im gonna appeal
lets see where it goes frm there.
if it goes thru..i'll promise i'll study VERYHARD
if it doesnt..i dont even wanna think about it...
but according to my streak of failure right
im sure i wont stay soo
wads the point.......
failures unite...i tink im the only one
okay
maybe i'll go take a knife and poke myself or smth....zzz
| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 7:27 AM|
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