Monday, May 22, 2006

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haii
im beginning to hate going to school
i have to drag myself allllllll thhhehheeeee wayyy
just to get up from the bed..
haii
the feeling just plain sucks
its not the studying part
IN FACT
i like the studying part more than the
err
non studying part
yeah
its like lessons are alright
at least i'm motivated to learn sumth
i wanna prove myself in this school
i wanna show those ppl.
i wanna be better than some
lowlifes there which i unfortunately encountered.

yeah..take my class for example
nahh i only hang ard the few ppl
the others are like...
i dunno
so outta my league
i cant communicate
FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE
then..
theres this POSER CHRISTIAN..
evrything she has..has the word God
on her pencilcase,her notebook,everything
but once you look at the way she behaves and talks
you'll be damn disgusted...
maybe its just me la
but i dont like these kinda people
although humans have imperfections
dont friggin be a POSER PLEASE..
guess what..
shes frm CHC...
Whooooo..i was right all along
CHC...GOOD JOB=D

yeah..
and
theres no life la
im like so totally donwan to gt involved
i quittin guitar
joining library ba
i wanna slack
and get my grades up

i dont know
but something in me
tells me that
i've changed..
the jc changed me..?
changed for the better? for worse..?
i dont know man
seriously i'm in a mess
physically,mentally..

but God is doing something abt it ryt
will there be a pot of gold
at d end of my rainbow.?
well..maybe time will tell..
i beginning to hate my depressing entries
i wanna cheer up
but certainly
not in the present state im in..
okay
i guess this is it
omg i sound suicidal..
nah dont worry
i'll sort myself out
as always


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