Monday, February 25, 2008

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so long since the last update.
HA!

anyway today went swimming in the morning
with zhao and sk
after that badminton-ing
and went to Hideout Cafe
to play some imba games.
haha im beginning to really like that place
we go there like..every week lol
thoong seng come soonafter to chill
so off we went to 85 and ate our dinner
kinda cool la
he told us about army stuff blahblah
quite insightful to say the least
well i dont know what i'm saying but
i'm kinda excited about Army.

many people say its sian
but i believe that
if you can find joy in what you're doing
you'll find any obstacle easier to overcome.
took some photos and went back after that
and here i am blogging
its 2am and i should be sleeping
but you know its one of those nights again
i dont wanna waste it cuz these nights dont come often
i'll pen down some lyrics and go to bed
maybe work on the tunes some other day.
cuz i'm kind of really tired now.

well i dont think i'm updating these few days
but i'll see what i can do.


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 9:58 AM|

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Tuesday, February 05, 2008

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i just had the weirdest dream
its like a movie
and i'm a third person
in that particular movie scene.
watching from somewhere.
okay it may sound abit ridiculous
but imma bored so i'm gonna share it.

12am
he's walking back home after taking the bus
earphones fitted snugly over his ears
as rock numbers pounded through his body
creating much needed accompaniment on the quiet walk back.
not long after he came across the bus stop.
he always passed this bus stop whenever he heads back.
" how long's been since then?" he thought looking at the opposite street
that night a few years back was the last time
that they
were at that very bus stop on the opposite street at the same time.
that night nobody spoke, only exchanging faint goodbyes
half hearted wellwishes, niggling formalities to say the least.
and he never saw her again.
a drop of water from the skies jolted him back to the present.
it was raining.
he bucked and ran for the nearest cover under a block.
the rain wont be stopping for a long time, he thought
as he gazed into the distance, a chill went down his spine

***

She overslept the bus ride.
and alighted unknowingly at this very same spot.
the same spot, she said to herself
those years back.
its not that she wanted to come here
but somehow she felt relieved she was here
rather than somewhere else..
somewhere where she wont feel safe
she felt at ease and safe here,
well..but hes not around anymore isnt he?
it wasnt a very clear goodbye after all.
feelings lingered and she still misses his absence
even if it is by a little bit.
the rain is getting heavier now, she realized
a familiar figure somehow was looking directly at her on the opposite street.
through the downpour
a figure.
a man.
***

He'd recongnize those beautiful eyes anywhere
somehow
She came back.
at
the very
same
spot.
joy? bitterness? he doesnt know
a million concoctions of emotions coursed through his mind
at the very moment.
suddenly his feelings hit a brick wall.
and he was lulled forcefully back down to earth
by something she said those years ago
"we'd better off friends "
these4 words hit him square in the gut that night.
and these 4 words were also the words that haunted him
for the few months after.
he tried to figure himself out
only to realise hes too shattered inside to start.
only recently he managed to piece himself together.
little by little.
suddenly the night seemed dead silent.
as he felt a vibration in his pocket.
he picked his cellphone up.
***

it wasnt the best place to see each other at this time of the night.
should i say at least a hello? she thought
maybe it was her fault back then
they were both so young.
maybe her impatience got the better of her?
and ended everything that was between these 2 starcrossed lovers.?
unknowingly she dialled his number onto her cellphone.
almost in guilt.
and placed the handset to her ear.
***

He looked at his cellphone.
he could recongnize this number by heart.
why? he asked himself.
why couldnt she just let it go?
why couldnt she just let HIM go?
after haunting his dreams and thoughts
and finally when everythings about to get normal.
she reappears to almost remind him of her presence.
remind him of the memories he once held so dear.
he was still staring at his cellphone.
3 seconds later
he entered the " reject" command.
***

the line went dead.
her heart sank.
the arrival of the bus put it between them
blocking her view.
as she boarded the bus,looking out of the blurred windows.
he wasnt there anymore.
and the rain continued pouring, and pouring.


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 10:16 AM|

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