Saturday, May 17, 2008

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when the dreams return
and leave


all they leave
is a void
inside you
and you're left wondering whether you did the right thing.
or you shouldnt do anything at all.


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 11:20 AM|

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Sunday, May 11, 2008

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ahh finally
i'm back for an update.
so i shall answer some long awaited questions
firstly due to overwhelming response for my army haircut
i shall post a photo























HAHA SURELY ONE
okay just imagine a choc coloured round jackfruit
add a black specs
yeah thats how i look now
so be CONTENT with that alright.

army still kinda sucks for me
although im in for like 1 mth
tmr's field camp
6d5n out in the wilderness
learning how to survive
learning how to fight
how to kill the enemy
i'm not really interested
but for the sake of it i'll do it la
well, since i'm there might as well do it properly
its not that the army is TOUGH till can die
its more like uncomfortable
the lack of freedom
i really miss civilian life.
but army life also make me appreciate people more
esp my family and friends
i treasure time off with them than last time
haha i know this might sound dumb
but i've been going to the market with my mum for these 2 weeks i'm out.
in the past i'd just sleep the sunday morning away
but ns makes me cherish time with my family more
ya so i'm kinda glad i changed this way.
okay la i'll give myself a chance
let ns change me
i shall adapt to the environment and not the opposite.

havent been to church for awhile
i'm feeling really very bad and guility
God stood by me all these times.
yet i cant give him the time
i gotta take stock of my life alr

this is a time of transition
i can say its not easy ah.
really its not easy
but i'm trying very hard.
sometimes i feel like giving up
but its all a part of growing and learning
time to book in
i gotta change alr ahha bye all.


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 12:30 AM|

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