Monday, March 06, 2006

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1st day of orientation in tpjc...
i was late this morning...
haii
tpjc frankly speaking
doesnt care abt latecomers..
soo there i went...
followed the crowd cuz i got no idea where to go to..
yupp
den eventually made my way to the hall
mett cheryl along the way too
we were like
" wad are we doinghere?!! "
everthing was in a big mess
there was no organization
no teachers in charge
no order..
and found out alot of ppl had the same fate as us
mj ==> tpj
haiis
den we waited and rotted for lyk 45 mins..
waiting for the principals address..
if its in mj
the council wont let this happen la
but the tpjc council couldnt care less
just left us there to rot..
den one tcher came and said we may use the washroom
lol
when she said that
immediately half the cohort left the college
yeah
so much for school spirit.....

after dat was the principals address..
she mentioned that
there were over 100 appeals into tpjc
YEAH RIGHT
appeal out more i guess..zzz
and congratulated us for coming into tpjc
im was like whattt....
hmm
den i went to find shiqi..
she had the same reaction as me also..
both of us sian 1/2
dunno how the 1st 3 mths tpjc ppl survive
den after dat was the tour ard the college
i tell you..
the college is RUNDOWN..
the LTs..kns
the canteen cannot make it..
the walkways..i dont even wanna say

den went back mjc after the 1st day is over..
for some reason...
i dont feel it
as in..
i feel kinda extra back in mjc
seriously i dont know whyy..
talked to the vegans abit..
den talked to junkwang,andrew,yanhong
and shuling even said that mj is boring
and jane ponned..
when me and shiqi heard we were lyk
WHAT!
here we are dying to get in
you guys are saying mj sucks and din turn up..
whats happening in this world....
i haf no ideaa..

dats about all today
theres still orientation for the nxt 4 days
i looked at my schedule..
i sian already
while my vegans are having fun..
im sitting thru lectures..
if tpjc is so hiong on studies..
why izit still so academically sucky..?
blehs....
i dont feel like going anywhere..
i feel so desolated..depressed..
yeah i dont think my nxt two yrs would be quite happy..
all because i screwed up my choices..
can only bank on my appeal already
which frankly speaking..has less than 5% chance of gettin through.

so far
i guess
this is the most depressed i ever been in my life.
i never felt so..
err
sad before..
i dunno..
why must i screw up my choices...
damn.
come to think of it..it was damn stupid.
whatever
no point dwelling over it now..

its funny to see God toying with your destiny..
maybe he has a plan..
does he have a plan for the beggar in the street..?
is being a beggar part of his plan.?
if it is..
its too cruel..
i dont know.
people always say..keep the faith..
well,all i can say is im trying very hard to..
God works in mysterious ways
sometimes good
sometimes bad
and the good stuff
never happens to me


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