Saturday, July 08, 2006

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frustrations
frustrations..
and
disappointments
yeah
although Furnix won
but
i conceeded a goal
thanks to my defensive mistake
its seriously not the first time
i did this stupid thing
when i gt a foul throw afterwards
my confidence really really hit rock bottom.
as in
i dont even want to carry on playing
and when i got subbed off
actually i felt relieved..
the team would not have to worry
and i was correct
we attacked..and scored a goal
won 4-2
set me thinking..
would the team actually be much better
and playing at a higher level without my
dumb and clumsy inclusion..?

am i just a liability..
a burden to the team
i seriously think i am
...
well
i know it sounds childlish
but im..demoralized in a sense
no
im totally demoralized
how the hell am i gonna play well
somebody tell me..
if its the matter of technique
im willing to train
if its the problem of talent
i guess

the only way out is to quit the team.


| Malcolm. fought for sanity @ 5:38 AM|

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